Ese momento previo al vacío

Todo le decía que estaba errada, que estaba haciendo lo que no correspondía, que estaba poniendo su vida en la linea por un mero capricho. Su respiración era entrecortada, sentía que sus piernas se aflojaban, hacía calor, a su alrededor la gente impávida parecía no percibir el peligro, sus manos temblaban, no lograba detenerlas, sintió como la vista comenzaba a fallar, sabía que finalmente iba a caer, que este sería su fin, que imbécil, por qué lo había hecho, que la había empujado a jugar así con su existencia, todo pareció moverse rápidamente y quiso gritar pero ningún sonido abandono su cuerpo, el suelo se iba a deshacer bajo sus pies y el hilo del que su vida pendía iba a ser la soga en su cuello, los nudillos de sus manos blancos, sus labios en un rictus, la piel de la cara tensa, la frente perlada de sudor...... "DING DONG! tenemos altitud de vuelo, se espera tiempo agradable", ahora...... solo quedaba bajar.

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Translation!

All in this world was telling her that she was wrong, that she shouldn't be doing that, because there was a threat to her life, and all for a stupid whim. Her breathing was ragged, she felt her legs getting loose, the small amount of air that she was able to grasp was hot and loaded of humidity, the people around didn´t seem to feel it, her hands were shaking to the point that she wasn´t able to make them stop, she even felt her eyes failing, she knew that she was about to fall, that this was about to be the end of all, idiot why did you did this?, what in this earth made you play like this with your own existence?. Suddenly everything started to move, she wanted to shout but not even one sound left her body, the floor was about to disappear under her feet, and that thread holding her life was going to be a rope around her neck, her knuckles turned white, her lips in a rictus, the skin of her face absolutely tense, a thread of wet pearls showing in her forehead .... "DING DONG .... we have reached flying altitude, pleasant climate is expected", and she realized, that now there's s only left to land.

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Perdido

Perdido en la inconsciencia, en la ambivalencia del propio existir, buscando caminos, emociones, existencias que aprender, threads, hilos de pensamiento,  en los que mi mente pueda perderse para no tener que hacer foco en la tedia, en ese inefable aburrimiento que causa la soledad del alma.

Si nadie entiende tus palabras... bien podrías ser mudo... si no entendés que nada es exactamente todo, si no ves más allá de la realidad construida.... no tenés de que preocuparte.

Quizás debas crear tus mundos, lógicos, honorables, justos, acaso sea momento de permitir ver cada capa de ese universo como un todo... un todo en el que estas conectado a todo y una nada en la que ya no sentís...

Te mirás al espejo y no ves un demonio, ves un ser que perdió el cielo para ganar la tierra, que entendió que en el espacio no hay arriba, y que tampoco hay abajo, que finalmente no hay lugar al que puedas llegar, que no te fuerce a fabricar una llave, forjada con la seguridad de que merecés entrar

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Translation

LOST

Lost in the unconsciousness, in the ambivalence of my own existence, looking for paths, emotions, lives to learn, threads of thought , where my mind finds a way to get lost, just to avoid focus on routine, in that ineffable boresome caused by the loneliness of the soul.

If no one understand your words you well could be mute, if you can´t  understand that nothing is exactly the same as all, if you don't want to see through your reality construct, you have nothing to worry about.

Maybe you should create your own worlds, logical, honorable, fair. Maybe is time to see every layer of this universe as a whole, one only and whole thing connected to everything and a nothingness where your feelings are just floating.

You see your reflection in a mirror and you can´t see a demon, you can see a being that lost heaven in the path to win the earth, a person that understood that in space there is no up or down, and there is no place that can't force you to create a key forged with the absolute security of a deserved entrance. 

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